One morning I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise.
Ah, the beauty of YHWH's creation is beyond description.
As I watched, I praised YHWH for His beautiful work.
As I sat there, YHWH brought His presence on me.
He asked me, "Do you love Me?"
I answered, "Of course YHWH! You are my Master and my Savior!"
Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love Me?"
I was perplexed.
I looked down upon my arms, legs, and the rest of my body and wondered how
many things I wouldn't be able to do. The things that I took granted for.
And I answered, "It would be tough, YHWH, but I would still love You."
Then YHWH said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
How could I love something without being able to see it?
Then I thought of all the blind people in the world
And how many of them still loved YHWH and His creation.
So I answered, "It's hard to think of it, but I would still love You."
YHWH then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to My Word?"
How could I listen to anything being deaf?
Then I understood.
Listening to YHWH's Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts.
I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your Word."
YHWH then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
How could I praise without a voice?
Then it occurred to me,
YHWH wants us to sing from our very heart and soul.
It never matters what we sound like.
And praising YHWH is not always with song.
But even when we are persecuted,
We give YHWH praise with words of thanks.
So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your name."
And YHWH asked, "Do you really love Me?"
With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly,
"Yes YHWH! I love You because You are the one and true Elohim!"
I thought that I had answered well, but YHWH asked, "They why do you sin?"
I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."
"Then why in times of peace, do you stray the furthest?
Why only in times of trouble do you pray the hardest?
No answer. Only tears.
"Why only sing at fellowships and retreats?
Why seek Me only in times of worship?
Why ask things so selfishly?
Why ask things so unfaithfully?"
The tears continued to roll down my cheek.
"Why are you ashamed of Me?
Why are you not spreading the Good News?
Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My shoulder to
Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?"
I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.
"You are blessed with life.
I made you not to throw this gift away.
I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away.
I have stretched My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge.
I have spoken to you, but your ears were closed.
I have shown my blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away.
I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away.
I have heard your prayers, and I have answered them all."
"Do you really love Me?"
I could not answer. How could I?
I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse.
What could I say to this?
When my heart had cried out, and the tears had flowed,
I said, "Please forgive me YHWH. I am unworthy to be Your child."
YHWH answered, "That is My grace My child."
I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me?
Why do You love me so?"
"Because you are my creation. You are My child.
I will never abandon you.
When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you.
When you scream in joy, I will laugh with you.
When you are down, I will encourage you.
When you fall, I will raise you up.
When you are tired, I will carry you.
I will be with you 'til the end of the days, and I will love you forever."
Never had I cried so hard before.
How could I have been so cold?
How could I have hurt YHWH as I had done?
I asked YHWH, "How much do You love me?"
And HE stretched out His arms,
As they were nailed on the tree
I bowed down at the feet of Yahushua, my Savior.
And for the first time, I really prayed.