The feast was absolutely awesome! We had a blast! The fellowship was probably the best--finally putting faces to many of those names on the chat room, and meeting some wonderful new people was so awesome! The activities were fun as well, all of them helping us to learn what it's like to work together and how to really have a great team. All in all, the feast was a blast!!
The only sad part was when the feast was over, and everyone was packing up and heading home! It went by too fast! I can't wait till next feast--Passover, and Feast of Unleavened Bread! Yahweh's feasts are no match for the world's. They don't last as long, aren't as fun or fulfilling and encouraging as Yahweh's are! It's so sad that so many people can't see why Yahweh made the feasts--not only to worship Him, but for our pleasure as well! They aren't a burden! They aren't done away with!
Well, this past week I've really been thinking about how we should trust in Yahweh. It's tough, especially if you've been let down in your life when you have trusted others. That just complicates matters. With that pain from the past, you think, "Well, what if Yahweh lets me down?" or "What if this doesn't turn out like I wanted, and I'm miserable for the rest of my life?".
I've always struggled with that. I'll have to say that just two nights ago I finally gave up and surrendered. I was like, "Yahweh made me, He knows everything about me, and He knows just who is the right man for me," (I've really struggled with the fact of who my future husband will be. I mean, that's a life-long commitment that can't ever be broken!) So I prayed. But, it took more than prayer. I didn't feel any different. I was like, "Okay, how in the world do I give this to Him?" But, then I thought, word pictures. So, I prayed for Yahweh to show me a picture of Him taking this from me. I told him I was giving it to Him--I was holding it out.
In my mind, I saw a picture of myself walking up a hill with a huge rock on my back--the rock was bigger than me! Then, I watched His hands come into the picture, and pick up the rock off my back, and I ran after Him as He began to walk away with it. There was joy written all over my face.
And I knew right then he had taken it. What a burden off my back! The toil and decisions of the future were up to Him! He knew me better than I knew me, so He knew who was the right person for me, and everything that was with my future.
Matthew 11:28, "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."
Yes, He will.
So I would encourage all my young brothers and sisters who struggle like I did to do the same--give it to Yahweh. It is hard--it took me several years. I don't claim to know everything, but I do know that Yahweh is there for you, and He's reaching out, ready to take your burden for you, so you can climb that mountain.
May Yahweh Bless you all.
A fellow servant, Kara